Hiding It Well
Before I turned up to the shoot I was terrified!
Reference: She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.” (Genesis 16:13 NIV)
Explore: I’ve just started doing some more video content with a brilliant video producer. Andrew is funny, creative and passionate about his work.
The last time we worked together I was presenting on a short video. It was the first time I had ever done anything like this and before I turned up to the shoot I was terrified! But I tried to be as professional as I could and was really happy with the end result.
Nine months later and I find myself working with Andrew again. We talked concepts and scripting and key messages but in all of that there was one sentence that stood out me…
Andrew and I were sharing a joke and he said, “It’s nice to work with someone who has a healthy self-esteem like me.”
I was glad that Andrew enjoyed working with me, but I never thought of myself as having a healthy self-esteem. It’s certainly more healthy now than when I was a child and teenager, but as far as self-confidence goes, I still feel I have a long way to go.
Clearly the persona I am projecting to Andrew is a little different to what I feel on the inside.
Application: That is what I love about my relationship with God. He knows exactly who I am, with all my insecurities, and He loves me unconditionally anyway!
Sometimes I can feel quite vulnerable knowing that He hears all my innermost thoughts, but it always gives me comfort, when I am in crisis, to know there is someone who knows me so completely.
This grace and comfort that God offers me is something I can return to others. I will never know other people’s innermost thoughts, but I can always show understanding and support when called upon.
Prayer: Lord, thank You for the love You give to me, particularly when I feel vulnerable and weak. Amen.
Who knows you the best in this world?
This article was written by Linda Bailey
Linda started theological studies in 1999 in Australia. After working for ten years in various church ministries, she now works as the breakfast producer at 89.9 LightFM - the Christian radio station in Melbourne, Australia. She writes blogs every day about passages she is currently reading in the Bible. Follow her on Google Plus +Linda Bailey or Facebook by clicking the like button on the right of this page.