A New Room

I attended a conference today and it reminded me of how far I still have to go with my self-confidence.

Before arriving I made sure I had plenty of time to do my hair and make-up. I was meeting people I had never met before and I felt first impressions were important.

I double checked the confirmation email to make sure I had the right date, time and place. I left with plenty of time to spare in case there was bad traffic or an unexpected delay.

When I arrived I sat in the car park for a little while as I didn’t want to be the first in the building. I wasn’t sure who I would meet and how much small talk I would have to make before the conference actually kicked off.

When I wrote down my movements of this morning it made me think of an insecure teenager. While I’m already in my late 30s I guess I still have a little way to go in feeling confident about who I am. Am I alone? I wish I was but I presume not.

This is often how people feel when they come to church for the first time or a new job or a new social setting. Some people even cancel opportunities as they are too overwhelmed to go anywhere new.

While I wish I didn’t have these insecurities, I do acknowledge them, and then ensure they don’t stop me from moving forward.

If I really believed what God says of me I would be assured that I am beautifully and wonderfully made (Ps 139). I would remember He values me so highly that He gave His ultimate gift of His Son so I could have the best life possible being free from the burden of sin (John 3.16).

I feel that life will always throw challenges my way and that my own insecurities will limit me. And so I need to continually remind myself that a loving, gracious God made me and wants the best for me. Living with the Creator of the Universe by my side should give me all the confidence I require.

Lord, may I find hope in You so I may banish my fear and live in Your freedom. Amen.

What holds you back?

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This article was written by Linda Bailey

Linda started theological studies in 1999 in Australia. After working for ten years in various church ministries, she now works as the breakfast producer at 89.9 LightFM - the Christian radio station in Melbourne, Australia. She writes blogs every day about passages she is currently reading in the Bible. Follow her on Google Plus +Linda Bailey or Facebook by clicking the like button on the right of this page.